"Why have philosphers always spoken of love? That's how philosophy started - No, no. It's not possible. I have an empty head on love in general. And as for the reason philosophy has often spoken of love, I'd either have nothing to say or I'd just be reciting cliches.

One of the first questions one could pose... I'm just searching a bit... is the question of the difference between the who and the what. Is love the love of someone or the love of something? Okay supposing I loved someone. Do I love someone for the absolute singularity of who they are? I love you because you are you. Or do I love your qualities, your beauty, your intelligence? Does one love someone, or does one love something about someone? The difference between the who and the what at the heart of love, separates the heart. It is often said that love is the movement of the heart. Does my heart move because I love someone who is an absolute singularity, or because I love the way that someone is? Often love starts with some type of seduction. One is attracted because the other is like this or like that. Inversely, love is dissapointed and dies when one comes to realise the other person doesnt merit out love. The other person isn't like this or like that. So at the death of love, it appears that one stops loving another not because of who they are, but because they are such and such. That is to say, the history of love, the heart of love, is divided between the who and the what."

- Jacques Derrida

I just want to remember this. I couldn't find it online, so while watching it, I typed this out. There are some things that I don't agree, some philosophies of his that I frown upon and don't understand, but that's what philosophy is about anyway right? I'm fascinated with this idea of love, and how philosophers try to construct, deconstruct and reconstruct it. Intellectuals tear it apart, shred it up and analyse it, but commonfolk just angst over it and make stupid love notes. The contrast is slightly hilarious. The philosophy of it makes my head hurt a little, but I think it makes the entire idea of love a little more fun. I remember when it began and I don't think I will ever forget it.

What a difference a day made

And the difference is you

Admit something: Everyone you see, you say to them, “Love me.”

“A woman sits up straight: she’s on edge. She leans into the cushions: she’s provocative. She leans over to another woman: she’s a gossip. She holds the other woman’s hand: she’s queer. She hold an apple in her hand: she’s a temptress. She slices the apple: she’s tame. She slices your heart out: she’s a bitch. She wears a heart at her throat: she’s a beauty. She wears a silk tie at her throat: she’s butch. She wears a silk camisole: she’s a slut. She’s slutty: she’s a celebrity. She celebrates herself: she’s got nerve. She’s celibate: she’s pathetic. She’s empathetic: she’s a sweet thing. She sweetens the deal: she’s a honeypot. She hones her tongue: she’s a shrew. She’s shrewd: she’s deadly. She’s dead: she’s innocent. She’s a virgin: She’s on edge.”

-- Eva Heisler

Romeo: Is love a tender thing? It is too rough, too rude, too boisterous, and it pricks like thorn.

Mercutio: If love be rough with you, be rough with love. Prick love for pricking, and you beat love down.

There is no sense in loving someone you can never wake up to except by chance.

-- Jeanette Winterson, The Passion,

the best part of me is hidden

Ferdinand: Why do you look so sad?

Marianne: Because you speak to me in words and I look at you with feelings.

-- Pierrot le fou (1965)

it's so nice

to wake up in the morning

all alone

and not have to tell somebody

you love them

when you don't love them

any more.

Love Poem, Richard Brautigan

In an effort to get people to look

into each other’s eyes more,

and also to appease the mutes,

the government has decided

to allot each person exactly one hundred

and sixty-seven words, per day.

When the phone rings, I put it to my ear

without saying hello. In the restaurant

I point at chicken noodle soup.

I am adjusting well to the new way.

Late at night, I call my long distance lover,

proudly say I only used fifty-nine today.

I saved the rest for you.

When she doesn’t respond,

I know she’s used up all her words,

so I slowly whisper I love you

thirty-two and a third times.

After that, we just sit on the line

and listen to each other breathe.

- The Quiet World, Jeffrey McDaniel -

You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and he won’t tell you that he loves you, but he loves you. And you feel like you’ve done something terrible, like robbed a liquor store, or swallowed pills, or shoveled yourself a grave in the dirt, and you’re tired. You’re in a car with a beautiful boy, and you’re trying not to tell him that you love him, and you’re trying to choke down the feeling, and you’re trembling, but he reaches over and he touches you, like a prayer for which no words exist, and you feel your heart taking root in your body, like you’ve discovered something you didn’t even have a name for.

excerpt from You Are Jeff by Richard Siken

I never told you I'd love you all my life. Oh my love, you never swore to adore me all your life. We never made promises like that, knowing me knowing you. We never thought we ever would be caught by love fickle as we were. And yet, and yet, step by step, without a word between us, bit by bit, feelings slipped between our merry mingle bodies and words of love rose to our naked lips. Bit by bit lots of words of love began to mingle gently with our kisses. How many words of love? I never would have thought I'd always want you. Oh my love, we never would have thought we two could live together and not get bored. Wake up every morning and be just as surprised to be just as happy in the same bed, desire nothing more than that oh so banal pleasure of feeling so good to be together. And yet, and yet, step by step without a word between us, bit by bit our feelings bound us tight in spite of ourselves, bound us tight forever Feelings stronger than any words of love known or unknown. Feelings so wild and so strong. Feelings we never thought were possible before. Don't ever promise to adore me all your life. Let's not make promises like that knowing me knowing you. Let's keep the feeling that this love of ours, this love of ours, will be short and sweet.

The truth spoken by Marianne Renoir in Pierrot le fou

Take me out tonight

Take me anywhere, I dont care

I dont care, I dont care

And in the darkened underpass

I thought oh god, my chance has come at last

(But then a strange fear gripped me and I

Just couldnt ask)

The Smiths - There Is A Light That Never Goes Out

He watched her. He took his time.

Had he known he was about to enter a tunnel whose only egress was his own annihilation, would he have turned away?

Perhaps.

Perhaps not.

Who can tell?

~

They looked at each other. They weren’t thinking any more. The time for that had come and gone. Smashed smiles lay ahead of them. But that would come later.

~

She pulled his head down towards her and kissed his mouth. A cloudy kiss. A kiss that demanded a kiss-back. He kissed her back. First cautiously. Then urgently. Slowly his arms came up behind her. He stroked her back. Very gently. She could feel the skin on his palms. Rough. Calloused. Sandpaper. He was careful not to hurt her. She could feel how soft she felt to him. She could feel herself through him. Her skin. The way her body existed only where he touched her. The rest of her was smoke.

~

Biology designed the dance. Terror times it. Dictated the rhythm with which their bodies answered each other. As though they knew already that for each tremor of pleasure they would pay with an equal measure of pain. As though they knew that how far they went would be measured against how far they would be taken. So they held back. Tormented each other. Gave of each other slowly. But that only made it worse. It only raised the stakes. It only cost them more. Because it smothered the wrinkles, the fumble and the rush of unfamiliar love and roused them to fever pitch.

Behind them the river pulsed through the darkness, shimmering like wild silk. Yellow bamboo wept.

Excerpts from ‘The God of Small Things’ by Arundhati Roy

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walnuts, cacao, spinach, sweet potatoes, SALMON
6. Sweet Potatoes

The orange color of sweet potatoes gives their secret away. Sweet potatoes are on my list of top 10 beauty foods because of their big boost of beauty-enhancing beta-carotene, a fat-soluble pigment found in many orange vegetables and fruits. It is a powerful antioxidant that protects our cells by destroying the free radicals that can damage cells (including skin cells) and cause age-related disorders. The body converts beta-carotene to vitamin A, which helps keep your skin smooth, so incorporating sweet potatoes into your diet can help you achieve wrinkle-free skin. Beta-carotene also may protect skin from the damage caused by sun exposure. One cup of cubed sweet potato contains a stunning 14,260 micrograms of beta-carotene.

8. Tomatoes
I added tomatoes to my list of top 10 beauty foods because they provide the greatest amount of the antiaging antioxidant lycopene, the bright red carotenoid pigment that gives tomatoes, watermelons, and pink grapefruit their distinctive color. Believe it or not, tomatoes are one food I encourage you to enjoy processed. The lycopene in tomatoes is actually more easily absorbed by the body after it is processed into juice, sauce, ketchup, or canned tomato puree. Ounce for ounce, the greatest source is canned tomato paste. It's a great staple to keep in your pantry to add to soups or stews for an antioxidant boost.

5. Kiwifruit

Kiwifruit offers a rich nutritional reward in a small, delicious package. Inside of this small, brown, fuzzy fruit -- about the size and shape of a very large egg -- you'll find semitranslucent green flesh and small black seeds around a white center. Kiwifruit has a unique sweet flavor something like a combination of strawberries, pineapples, and bananas. I've included kiwifruit among the top 10 beauty foods because it offers more than just a tropical touch for your fruit salad: it has an unusually abundant amount of vitamin C and other antiaging antioxidants. Kiwifruit offers beauty benefits from stimulating collagen synthesis (vital to lovely skin) to maintaining healthy bones and teeth to protecting against wrinkles and premature aging. Because kiwis are antioxidant all-stars, they can help neutralize free radicals, which otherwise can cause damage to cells that could lead to inflammation, cancer , and heart disease.


2. Blueberries

With their bright flavor and unmistakable blue hue, blueberries seem to be trying to catch our attention. Today the humble blueberry is experiencing a new level of popularity, not because it has a significant amount of any one vitamin or mineral but because of its unusual antioxidant profile. Researchers at a U.S. Department of Agriculture (USDA) laboratory at Tufts University in Boston, Massachusetts, rank blueberries number one in antioxidant activity when compared to 40 common fresh fruits and vegetables. Blueberries contain many plant compounds that combine to make this sweet fruit an antioxidant superstar. I included blueberries in my top 10 beauty foods because their antioxidant, antiaging, and anti-inflammatory effects protect you from premature aging.

2. Vote red
A recent British study found that subjects who ate five tablespoons of tomato paste every day suffered milder sunburns than those who didn't. Researchers think lycopene, a powerful natural antioxidant found in tomatoes, provides the sun-shielding bene­fits. (Tip: Cook your romas--your body will absorb the nutrients more easily.) It's no excuse to drop the SPF, but at least you have a good reason to go to your favorite Italian joint.


To help your body heal faster, which is helpful when treating acne, get your fill of berries for their anti-oxidant benefits, "especially cranberries, pomegranate and blueberries," says Day. And drink plenty of water, "it's so good for everything," says Day.

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