The first communion was anything but the celebration of unity and loving, intimate relationship our predecessors have portrayed it. The "Last Supper" paintings couldn't begin to capture the drama of the event. Try to put yourself in Jesus' shoes for a moment. You're having dinner with your 12 closest friends but you already know one has taken money to help people kill you tomorrow, 10 are going to abandon you between now and then, and the last one, your best friend, will say he never knew you. I know Jesus is fully God, but He's also fully man.