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    • It’s been slow going because I’m a survivor of abuse. However, this stuff would be tough for anybody to get through, but I think it’s harder for people who  have experienced and witnessed violence. 
    • I move beyond my old limitations and allow myself to express freely and creatively.
    • Try loving that child. Starting can be rough. I had to understand him first – his search for love.
    • Even though I’m NOT a morning person, I have to say I do love the early morning hours just before the sun comes up. Everything is so still and quiet. People are still sleeping, and the only noises to be heard are the occasional chirping of the crickets and birds, and the humming of hummingbirds wings.
    • I’m feeling really good today. Perhaps it’s because I’m leaving to go on a road trip later today. I love road trips, and driving.
    • Yesterday, I shared that I had recovered a flashback
    • Today I am going to write about why I think this is information I needed to process.
    • I’m kind of in a rut right now. I’m having a really hard time knowing what’s right from wrong. I don’t really know how to explain it…but it’s tearing me apart. In the last 12 months I have heard numerous times that what the people in my past did to me was wrong, horrible, and not okay. But because I have the tendency to push people away, it’s all happening again.
    • So, I’m lost.

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    • Life is a series of experiences, each one of which makes us bigger, even though it is hard to realize this. For the world was built to develop character, and we must learn that the setbacks and griefs which we endure help us in our marching onward.

       

      ~ Henry Ford

    • ow that I am on the other side of that great weekend, things are starting to crumble
    • I was wonderfully distracted, but now at home the distraction is gone and my mind is being flooded with thoughts I can barely contain and it is becoming increasingly difficult.
    • It feels lame to post about good days, and these posts sure do get a lot fewer hits, but so be it.  I had a good day, and if I never document good days, this blog isn’t representative.
    • But of course a good day doesn’t mean that all my problems and issues cease to exist; it’s just a day without any major triggers.  I do think that my good days are due in part to the work that’s done mentally on the bad days.

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    • It is said people with DID can have alter activity even if they are asleep....
       which can explain some missing time...
       feeling tired in the morning...
       waking up in other rooms ...
       stuff like that...
       
       Yes yes it's weird even for me....
       but it happens...
    • I'm hoping at some point to capture a picture of her..
       but that won't be so easy since i'm sleeping...

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    • The blue tiles lined with a hopeless effort to fit in. The floor always reflecting a self conscious, fearful, younger me, who thought she had everything under control.
    • But there’s also something really relaxing about talking with people who just know you on this other level – the one where you grew up together, danced at each other’s weddings, etc.
    • On the drive home I was all full of extrovert goodness, eager to share the joy.

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    • Some of us drink. Some of us smoke pot. Some of us take pills.  It’s a very common practice among the mentally ill.  I just wrote a blog post about that very subject:  Mental and Self-Medicating  I’m only human.  I have weaknesses. I have problems with moderation and self-control. But I am far from being a junkie.
    • Whomever this chick was, she needs to read more of our tweets before she judges us. 
    • 13:00 – Continue working
    • 16:00 – Chocolate break

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    • There are also thing about being in a relationship with someone who has DID that aren't always easy - according to him...*shrugs*....we don't always understand, because we think we're as normal as females are, generally speaking.
    • We still don't think we're worth it, and some of us know we aren't.
    • It is now clear that when I was 12 and this may be true for some cults I was given what they thought was an opportunity. In a way I was put on the cross roads. In my case it was three times.
    • What they really were offering is I could do well on my own and if I did they would take credit and they would only really be about any advantage to them.

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    • Conspiracy time: Isaac suffers from multiple personality disorder...
    • In that case Samson would be Isaac's pent up rage against everything, bloody lust making you stronger the more you kill enemies.
    • I became my wife’s caregiver, peacemaker and sometimes a target. She suffers from Multiple Personality Disorder. Nothing was ever easy or went smoothly. At times my life and safety were seriously compromised. Finally, I became overwhelmed by her illness and after the years of turmoil and uncertainty I left. I felt I had no choice but to take care of myself for a change. How do I get rid of these guilty feelings that I have?
    • If you are taking her to physicians for help, then I’m sure they are telling you how to “best” handle her situation. You may be all that she has right now, and if you give up on her it could equate to the same as stealing her last ray of hope… No one “chooses” to be sick, and if your wife could talk to you rationally from her “main” character I am sure you’d know what she would say to you.

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    • Do you think if a woman had MPD it would be possible for her to physically do everything the Ripper did?
    • The throat cuttings were particularly deep and savage and required a good amount of force. Also, some of the ladies may have been a bit difficult to subdue and required to be "handled."
       
       On the other hand, we DO have lady weightlifters.
       
       Possible? Yes.

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    • O’Hearn is now online in an intriguing Web series of his own creation. In “Alter Ego,” he plays an ex-wrestler on the verge of transitioning to A-list movie stardom, but his mind begins to work against him and his grasp of reality becomes increasingly frayed.
    • So, basically I had an idea for a superhero with a trait that I’ve never seen any other superhero have: his main fault is that he is possessed with a multiple personality disorder. I put pen to paper and started writing out the story.

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