Apple Ling's List: Self-Harm

*ANGSTY WAR!FIC, BUT IT HURTS SO GOOD *sniffles* ♥♥♥♥♥♥
A different take on the 'Sectumsempra bathroom scene' in HBP - except, it didn't happen. Harry Summoned Draco's wand out of his hand instead of casting 'Sectumsempra' - so instead of saving Draco from Fiendfyre, Harry saved Draco that day in Moaning Myrtle's bathroom. Harry and Draco stuck in Grimmauld Place (alone - because Kreacher and the screaming bitch of a portrait doesn't count) for their protection (locked in by wards). Faking Draco's death, severe (gore-y, bloody, torture-filled) nightmares, trauma and so much fear and angst and crying... and comfort sex (post-nightmare). Alcoholic!Depressed!Broken!Draco. Noble!Protective!Smitten!Harry. Lots of sexy angsty desperate!sex with Harry trying and failing to be noble (he didn't want to take advantage of a depressed!broken!Draco) - omg the blowjob scene in the drawing room! Attempted suicide, more angst but with happy Harry/Draco ending.

Summary: If you had only died when you were meant to, I'd have grown up in a wizarding world already ruled by the Dark Lord. I wouldn't be screaming at you in a sixth floor bathroom. I wouldn't be raising my wand, Crucio on my lips.

*Drama, drama, DRAMAAAAA!!
Harry/Draco and Lucius/Narcissa as the main pairings. Past Ron/Hermione and George/Hermione as a side pairing. Major character death (that happened before the story timeline - not Harry or Draco, not Lucius or Narcissa either). Cute baby Teddy Lupin. Grieving!Andromeda. Healer!Hermione. Alcoholics!Harry and Draco. Basically, Narcissa is sick and dying. The Malfoys are desperate to save her but the only person who can save her, refuses to do. Plus, St Mungos refuse to treat anyone affiliated with Death Eaters. Harry and Draco struggles with living and the guilt of surviving through the war while others died. They drown their problems with alcohol but in the end, their friendship (and love) saved each other from self destruction. Draco needs to tell his parents the truth about his sexuality and his relationship with Harry but isn't sure if Lucius will still love him after that. I have a bit of a problem how fast everyone (except Lucius and Narcissa because they've been married for years after all) jump from comfort friends-with-benefits sex to "I love you so much, I'd die without you", but other than that it's ok :) Warning for one scene in which one of the main protagonist tried to slash their arm open out of grief (and because they're too drunk to think straight) - near fatal but they didn't die.

Summary: A year after the war, wounds remain fresh. Survivors struggle just to keep surviving. They're plagued with guilt, illness, and new prejudices. Harry always thought his life would get easier after the demise of Voldemort, but he was wrong.

*SO AMAZING I'M ALL TEARY-EYED BECAUSE THIS IS... GAAH, SO AWESOME I CAN'T FIND WORDS WORTHY ENOUGH TO DESCRIBE ITS AWESOMENESS!! ♥♥♥♥♥
Auror!Harry (with Auror partner!Ron) and a rebellious!Draco who has suddenly decide he needs to face all his fears before it's too late (he has a list of things he wants to do and he asks Harry to help him). Harry is reckless, more than usual, in this story and Ron (and everyone else who knows Harry) thinks Harry has a serious death wish, which to be honest isn't that far from the truth. Frightened!Quirky!Earnest!Draco with his fears, insecurities and desperation to face all of them, actually grounds Harry and stops him from doing crazy reckless things that could get him killed. Draco with his weird theories of muggles (especially muggle women LOL!) and his hilarious visit to the Dursleys (with a magical potted plan that gives you rabbit ears!!). Flying on a hippogriff, facing werewolves (Draco's boggart is a werewolf), bonding moments and hilarious chats with Harry. Sexytimes (Draco bruises way too easily), Harry's tattoos and angst and the discussion of feelings and Harry and Draco bonds for real and then happy, happy ending!
#Heavily implied switching, graphic and detailed penetrative sex scene is bottom!Draco. In other scenes, Harry was the one on the receiving end of a lovely rim-job and fingering.... unfortunately, nothing more than that. Regardless of Top/Bottom, every sex scene is sinfully delicious!!

Summary: "There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance." -- John Lennon

*Hogwarts 8th-year. Sad!Lonely!Draco with severe panic attacks, nightmares and he keeps cutting himself. Harry saves him. Hurt/comfort disability fic #No sex. Mostly pre-slash

Summary: Faint though it seems to him, Draco hears the scrape of metal across stone echoing in his ears and with a quiet sigh of relief, he closes his eyes and hopes as he lets the darkness take him.

*Career Choices: features Harry as a purveyor of potion ingredients and Draco as an unwilling drug addict
SAD FIC IS SO SAD *heartbreaks*. I normally tend to avoid sad fics like the plague but this one's just irresistible... and all the tears shed were so worth it *sniffles*

Summary: I was looking for an excuse to leave the place when I spotted them. Six small glass vials were proudly displayed behind the counter. The liquid inside was cobalt blue. I had seen one of these in Draco Malfoy's hand eighteen months ago.

*I HAVE SO MANY FEELS FOR THIS FIC!! GOOD FEELS!! ♥♥♥♥♥!
Junior Auror!Harry, Lonely!Draco. Multiple broom crashes (almost like the magical kind of car accidents). Free Hugs campaign. In short, poor lonely!Draco just wants a hug goddamnit it, but people are horrible to him. Harry on the other hand... well, Harry makes it all better again. This is a flangsty but sweet version of a post-war world weary!draco. #No sex

Summary: Junior Auror Harry had it with Malfoy's silly cases being dumped on him. But when the git finally stops crashing with his broom, he appears in the middle of Diagon Alley.

*Cute getting-together!fic with the kids trying to match-make Harry and Draco together. Implied past child kidnapping and possible abuse suffered at the hands of the kidnapper (Teddy) and an almost!kidnapped case (Scorpius). Implied past actions of self-harm (Draco). Mute!Teddy (result of a curse). Scheming!Slytherin-esque!Lily Luna Potter. Heavy Ginny bashing.

Summary: Lily Luna Potter has a plan; one that involves Scorpius Hyperion Malfoy and his father, Draco. And she just knows that with this plan, she'll be the ultimate Slytherin. And maybe, just maybe, her father will be happy again.

*EPICNESS TOO AWESOME TO PUT INTO WORDS ♥♥♥♥♥♥!!!
Timeline from mid-war to a few years post-war. From Auror!Harry to Integration Officer!Harry plus Rentboy!Junkie!Draco
Broken-but-still-Canon!Draco with lots of issues (including but not limited to PTSD, rape trauma, acute fear of... too many things to name, drug use, prostitution, self-neglect, self-harm, depression, suicidal tendencies, unplanned fatherhood...) Hero!Harry for the most part (but in the end Draco was the one who saved him), baby Scorpius, werewolves, lost of magic because of a Dark Curse, dementors and general bleakness plus hurt/comfort and happy ending. #Switching but it's more bottom!Draco than bottom!Harry

Summary: Draco finds his own way to cope with being a failed Death Eater at Voldemort's headquarters. Voldemort finds a way to destroy the wizarding world even after his death. Harry is trying to hold the world together while his mind quietly comes apart.

*Healers!Harry and Draco. Abused!Harry... while Draco has his own issues. Both H and D tending to an abused little girl with uncontrollable wild magic. H having nightmares. H/D and office desk sex!

Summary: As the tenth anniversary of the War approaches, a difficult case at St Mungo's forces Harry to seek the assistance of his former enemy and face the past.

*Depressed!Recluse!Draco (and a bit off in the head) as a result of past trauma. Harry makes it all better... and cute!Teddy. Self-neglect and starvation. Fear of silence? References to possible past sexual abuse.

Summary: He'd always hated the silence.

*Auror!Harry, Potions Master!Snape and Forensic Analyst!Draco = ♥♥♥
Snape/bottom!Harry, Michael Corner/bottom!sub!Draco, Snape/Harry/bottom!sub!Draco (basically Snape/Draco/Harry with Draco in the middle of the threesome ♥♥♥).
Contains minor character deaths, depictions of violent torture and gore, graphic domestic abuse and partner-rape, catatonic trauma, unintentional self-harm due to trauma (scalding shower), Glamour to hide physical injuries, just a teeny tiny passing mention of male pregnancy, spell to isolate magical signature strands - sort of like DNA isolation, spell to break magical dampened signatures... and hot kinky yummy H/D/S smex! Draco's the complete bottom in all his relationships.

Summary: The return of a murderous vigilante group changes three men's lives forever.

*TOP FAVOURITE!! BEAUTIFULLY EXECUTED & BEYOND AMAZING!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥
Head Auror!Harry, (Muggle) Yakuza member!Draco. Contains Draco with tattoos and cigarettes!! Exiled from England & banned from using magic!Draco. H/D angry sex. Off-screen violence & torture, self-mutilation (yubitsume), Dark magical artifacts for resurrecting the dead and/or stealing magic from a Wizard by bleeding him dry, Japanese poetry.

Summary: Exiled from both Britain and the magical world, Draco Malfoy makes a living by identifying illegal magical artefacts on behalf of the Yakuza in Kyoto. He's almost put his past behind him when Head Auror Potter shows up in Japan chasing a Celtic relic, and Draco's life is once again thrown into utter turmoil.

*EPIC!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥
Draco dabbles in experimental potions to cure complications caused by dark curses. Harry opens Grimmauld Children's Home. Featuring a cursed collar, Dumbledore's many magical artifacts bequeathed to Draco - including a cute mechanical clockwork horse named Bert, wild!canine-ish!Harry, Draco with anxiety issues+nightmares+mild agoraphobia+alcoholic, supportive!Ron&Hermione, illegal underground fighting ring.

Summary: Harry is cursed with an undeniable need by a spell gone sour by age and disuse, and only Draco can calm his uninvited guest.

*CURRENT TOP FAVOURITE!! ♥♥♥
*Head Auror!Harry and Goblin Liason for the Ministry!Draco. Featuring confused-about-his-sexuality!Harry, minor elements of D/S, hot mansmex, minor character death, depressed!broken!Draco with survivor's guilt, self-harm (excessive scratching to get rid of a phantom stench), violent nightmares, blood, scalding showers, Glamour over multiple body scars, emotional melt-down, hurt/comfort, angst and budding H/D relationship.

Summary: Draco is a broken, apathetic shell of a man. He can't find the will to fight away his demons. One night with Harry Potter changes everything.

*♥♥♥!! 8th year. Draco+Goyle close friendship. Depressed!Draco with a stormy cloud over his head, accidentally overdosing on a potion, a Conjured White Peacock with Draco-ish mannerisms, stag patronuses, supportive!almost-friendly-(to-Draco)!Ron&Hermione. ONE OF THE CUTEST FICS EVER WRITTEN. #No penetrative sex.

Summary: It always rains for Draco Malfoy. Metaphorically. And literally. Ever since he had accidentally Conjured a cloud. A cloud that's ever so cross.

*SUPER FANFUCKINTASTIC ♥♥♥!!
Auror!Harry. Contains established Harry/Ginny, drug use, angst and graphic sexytimes!

Summary: The Sectumsempra incident during Draco's 6th year left him with unusual side effects. As a result, Draco finds himself gradually losing his 'senses' over the years after that. He could not feel pain, heat, cold and pressure. He could feel almost nothing. So he turned to drugs. Just so he could feel. Then he found something else more potent than drugs: Harry's touch. Because when Harry touches him, he could feel again.

*War veteran!Harry and Social worker!Draco / Protective!Possessive!Harry. Warnings: Very depressing tone, character death (not Harry or Draco), violence, severe magical epidemic, non-con/dub-con Harry/OMCs (in which Harry bottomed - just one scene), special magic-draining spell.

Summary: In a Great Britain destroyed by war and plagued by magical epidemics, those who are left behind struggle to survive and find meaning.

*Abandoned WIP (I think) but a truly impressive read while it lasted. Featuring broken!depressed!alcoholic!abused!Draco and alcoholic!Harry. Heavy Ron bashing. Homophobia and severe bullying. Severe child abuse, physical, sexual and mental. Alcoholism. Self-mutilation. A pet wolf cub. Draco has a bit of an eating disorder. Draco has his nose pierced. Rooming together in an abandoned classroom. Some elements of BDSM. #Sub!Bottom!Draco completely but at one point, he did finger-fucked Harry once.

Summary: Draco has a problem, he's trying to hide it, but Harry's onto him.

*Mentally unstable!Draco who likes to babble and a hopelessly smitten!Harry. Rather angsty but oh so bittersweet! Love this!!

Summary: Harry comes to visit him in the hospital. Draco would be grateful, if he hadn't lost the power of internal monologue. Twisted.

*Professional Quidditch player!Harry. Slightly handicapped!Draco as a result of trying to remove the Dark Mark. Nice!Ginny and Best Friend!Blaise

Summary: Ginny Weasley is getting married… to Blaise Zabini that is. It’s been seven years since the fall of Voldemort and since Harry Potter has seen Draco Malfoy. Somehow fate has put them in each other’s lives yet again. “It figures.”