Apple Ling's List: Genre:Angst

*8th year. Angsty hurt/comfort with a fluffy ending. Featuring Jittery!Prone to panic attacks!Depressed!Apathetic!Draco... basically this has an emotionally damaged!Draco like whoa! And a Pining!Obsessively stalker-like!Harry who's lost and wanted desperately to belong. Brief Harry/Ginny and Draco/Astoria (past Draco/Pansy). Not-Evil!Slytherins who genuinely care for Draco. Contains severe depression and anxiety that manifested in some form of numb, apathetic behavior + suicidal thoughts. Eating disorder. Nightmares and severe panic attacks. At one point Draco nearly gets himself killed and Harry rescues him. Stressful exams and classes. Touching H/D bonding moments and Draco/Astoria moments.
#Sex scenes happen off-screen.

Summary: Shortly after the war, Draco Malfoy wakes up with a new understanding, and Harry Potter needs firmer ground to walk on. Unfortunately, life is never easy, especially with the burdens of N.E.W.T.s looming closer. As Draco struggles to maintain his sanity, Harry is back to his old routine-stalking Draco.

*8th year. Basically Harry finds himself glued to Draco (literally) and is forced to get used to being in close proximity with Draco - plus go about his daily routine one handed. Draco's an intriguing mixture of (well hidden) vulnerability, false bravado, stubbornness, withdrawn wariness and cute snark. Harry, on the other hand is soooo Harry that he is UBER CUTENESS!! Awesome!Hermione. Harry's naughty t-shirt (to sleep in) and Draco's nightgown :p Sleeping and eating together. Nightmares and Draco crying and comforting. And lots of UST-ing. Also, teenagers can be real mean and thoughtless (especially to Draco, considering post-war circumstances) #No penetrative sex

Summary: The first thing Harry knew about it was when he woke up lying on a bed in the hospital wing, with his arm firmly stuck to the scrawny, milk-white arm of Draco bloody Malfoy.

*Established relationship (married, then divorced). Lots of tropical island induced UST-ing, a little bit of angst and drama, and lots of fluff!

Summary: Most people would think that seven days on a tropical island would be a week in paradise, unless they were stranded on the island with their ex-husband.

*8th year. Lonely!Bitter!Regretful-yet-still-prickly-and-defensive!Draco (and a little bit resentful for the way everything turned out for his family post-war), and a Harry who stalks/follows Draco all over the castle trying to help. "Vulnerable!Draco" tag is to make up for "Emotionally Damaged!Draco". Told mostly from Draco's pov. Sad!Pansy and Sad!Goyle. Featuring Draco being mean to others on purpose to make up for his "relapse" in showing vulnerability (which happens more often than not), Draco being bullied (a little bit) and shunned by other Slytherins, Draco crying or feeling on the verge of tears a lot, nightmares + insomnia + stealing potion ingredients to brew Dreamless Sleep, Harry trying to befriend a prickly!Draco, Draco writing letters to Ollivander but pretending to be someone else, H/D and some tricky bit of wandlore/magical wand bonding that has one of them experiencing the other's magic/dreams and H/D secret relationship, suicidal thoughts.
#Sex scenes all happen behind the screen so there's no way to tell who Tops/ Bottoms

Summary: There are things that Malfoys simply don't do. They don't cry, or show any emotion unless entirely unavoidable. They don't back down. And they certainly don't admit that maybe, just maybe, they might be wrong about a few things.

Draco's back for his eighth year, and with everything that's changed, these basic rules will soon be called into question.

*Rather OOC but it fits the story. Basically, on the night Harry, Ron and Hermione were grabbed by Snatchers and brought to Malfoy Manor, Draco decides to help them discretely... and also managed to get himself bedded by Harry (and subsequently falls pregnant). Voldie, Lucius and Narcissa thinks Draco's unborn child is fathered by Voldie. Draco plays along... and in the mean time, the war is in full swing and Draco tries to help Harry's side of the war as much as he can, discretely. Blaise as Draco's best friend. Also, Draco is very hormonal while pregnant ;p

Summary: When Draco sees Harry captured and taken to Malfoy Manor his feelings change. He is frightened and takes solace in the arms of the one person nobody would ever suspect. Draco hides the pregnancy from everyone who could use it against either Harry or himself. How does Harry find out…? What happens after that...?

*Basically Harry gets Draco pregnant in the middle of the war. Right before Harry goes Horcrux hunting, Draco pushes Harry away because of his insecurities and hides away in Hogwarts during his 7th year to protect his unborn child - he also joins the D.A. and befriends Luna, Neville and Ginny. Also, this contains some pregnancy angst as Draco battles his insecurities.
Fest link: http://harrydracompreg.livejournal.com/222447.html

Summary: Set in sixth year, Harry goes to the hospital wing to apologise to Draco and ends up confessing his love. They both didn't know this could happen, Harry is stuck in the middle of the war and Draco has to figure out how to protect his family! Vague but hopeful ending.

*Aching and angsty but such GOOD pain! ♥♥♥♥♥
Timeline spanning from middle of the war to directly post-war. Basically Harry and Ron got caught by Death Eaters and were thrown into a dingy dungeon cell in Malfoy Manor where they were tortured (sexual, physical and mental) for information. Draco is secretly on their side (sneaking healing potions and food to the prisoners). Featuring graphic descriptions of torture and rape, molestation, heavy usage of Dark curses, painful scarring and branding of the skin, Dark bondage spells meant to stretch, pull, hurt and burn the skin. Draco forced to sexually violate Harry (in case you find this part confusing --> *he fisted Harry*), unintentionally Harry did breached Draco's personal barriers and defenses too - in a way, violating Draco back, killing Voldie, hiding in a Safe House, helplessly smitten!pining!Draco who is deeply regretful of what he had done to Harry - part of Harry understands and wants to forgive but the other part of him can't get over the trauma (for Harry it wasn't about the pain or rape but he's traumatized over losing control to another), Draco trying to redeem himself after, unintentional Legilimency (the sharing of minds), wandless magic (Harry), H/D bonding moments, H/D hurt/comfort moments, adopting a stray kitty, sexy quietly assertive and dominant!Harry and a sub!Draco.
To note: Harry was sexually violated in a lot of ways but never with penile penetration, Ron's violation involve forced penile penetration. And while in the dungeon, Harry is made vulnerable to Draco but after, Draco is made very much vulnerable to Harry - both their enforced state of vulnerability deal with violation of their person but of different kinds. Strong!Harry and Ron, despite everything. Minor character death that is not Harry or Ron or Draco.
#Top!Harry/Bottom!Draco sexy sex scenes

Summary: A damaged-but-not-broken Harry in the clutches of Death Eaters and a caught-up-in-circumstances Draco who's not actually evil.

*One of the hurt/comfort classics in the H/D part of fandom. Featuring a vulnerable!needy!Draco (he also cries a lot) with symptoms of Multiple Personality Disorder/Dissociative Identity Disorder (with references to past abuse and torture - sexual,magical, physical and mental abuse - which resulted in breaking his mind), and Harry as his caregiver/guardian + eventual lover. Other memorable things to take note: Evil!Slytherins (and Lucius and the Death Eaters), Narcissa committing suicide, one of Draco's "other" personalities include a 6-year-old child, Draco has a penchant for climbing into Harry's lap for comfort or tucking his face in the crook of Harry's shoulder, Harry helping Draco get dressed/bathe... even lulling him to sleep, Ron getting angry at Harry, an old Black protection curse - the Ancestral Rite, getting kidnapped by baddies, having nightmares, teenage angst, teenage lusty hormones :p Happy ending
#Mostly bottom!Draco. 1 bottom!Harry scene in between flashbacks of bottom!Draco in the last chapter. *fans self* Sexy!

Summary: When Draco Malfoy's mental health mysteriously declines, he is placed under the care of the only person he responds to: Harry Potter. Includes mental disorders (paranoid schizophrenia, Dissociative Identity Disorder, post-traumatic stress).

*Adaptation of "Time Traveler's Wife" by Audrey Niffenegger. Harry has a "time-traveling" condition and as he time-travels, he meets Draco in various stages of their life. Uber sweet and romantic with a happy fluffy ending. Timeline spanning from when Harry first met tiny kidlet!Draco to when they're both old and grey (and still very much in love and together ♥). When Harry travels through time, he suffers a bit of disorientation and temporary amnesia. The Draco in this universe is endearingly sweet on Harry, probably because he remembers Harry's time-travel moments through various (significant) parts of his life more than Harry himself. Uber romantic H/D first time ♥♥
Smooch Fest link: http://hd-smoochfest.livejournal.com/117813.html

Summary: Harry was twenty-one the first time it happened, he was twenty-one and falling in love for the first time. It seems he'll go back, travel through time, until he finds the anchor that keeps him here.

*Non-magic AU. Prostitute!Draco, evil!Lucius, smitten!rich!Harry. Attempted non-con (Draco/OMC) and injuries from that attack.
Alternate link: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/9045111/1/Green-Satin-Sheets

Summary: When Lucius found out that his son was gay, he sold him to Voldemort and cut off the family fortune. Harry finds him on the streets seven months after Draco is able to break free. Can he save the blond dragon?

*Absolutely beautiful!! ♥♥♥♥♥
Basically Harry's stuck in a cursed sleep and Draco is the one tasked to take care of him. Along the way, Draco falls in love with Harry and angst over the impossibility of being with Harry. Happy ending! *Absolutely love ending scene* #No penetrative sex scenes

Summary: Harry's cursed with the Sleeping Beauty curse. And in order to protect him, he's put into protected hiding until a cure can be found. And Draco's got to pay for the war somehow.

*Absolutely beautiful! ♥♥♥♥♥
Auror!Harry who is also a dog animagus nicknamed Fluffy :p Blind!Draco (who is also a writer - He writes gay romance novels) and Harry is his bodyguard.
Basically Draco finds himself blind after an attack in Diagon Alley. Auror!Harry offers to pose as Draco's guide dog (in animagus form). Harry makes an adorable dog and is sweet and protective and PERFECT! Draco is terribly insecure, very self-punishing and has basically lost of faith in the Wizarding World he has left behind to live in the Muggle world, but doggy!Harry and Harry himself, gives him back his happiness and confidence. Draco collects old, discarded books because he couldn't bear to throw them away (aww!). Cute H/D bonding and hurt/comfort moments. Also, cute flustered!Harry moments when he finds himself attracted to Draco. And cute Draco+doggy!Harry moments. Plus, the cutest, fluffiest ending ever *loves*
Smooch Fest link: http://hd-smoochfest.livejournal.com/110188.html

Summary: Don't think of it as losing your sight. Think of it as gaining an Animagus who never quite learned the meaning of the word 'boundaries'.

*Gentle, quiet and romantic ~~happy sigh~~ ♥♥♥♥♥
Ex-Professional Quidditch player!Harry (for the Canons) turned owner of a lovely pub in Hogsmeade!Harry (The pub's name is "The Stag and Flower"). Private potions (and potion ingredients) supplier turned Potions Professor at Hogwarts!Draco. Past Draco/Astoria (and she's quite a cunning bitch in this) and Harry/OMC (and that OMC is a total bastard!). Featuring Ron/Hermione and Ginny as Harry's close friends, Harry's knee injury, Draco being lonely and depressed, Drunk!Draco, Draco with lovely, long hair, Sympathetic (to Draco's plight)!Harry, Harry walking Draco home, a little bit of a love triangle between Harry/Draco/Harry's ex (with Harry in the middle) sweet fluff. #No sex scenes. Just a sweet, slow and convincing buildup to H/D getting together :p

Summary: When Harry's life is turned upside down, he decides to start over. In so doing, he learns that he and Draco Malfoy might have more in common than he ever could have imagined.

*Ex Head Auror!Harry turned host of a homely lodging/bed and breakfast sort of thing (a Cumbrian manor which also happens to be H/D's home), Potions Master!Draco. Established H/D (civil partnership). Ginny + Astoria friendship. Epilogue compliant with teenage Next Gen (everybody being friends with everybody with the minor exception of James Sirius... because he hates Draco's presence in his father's life)
#Basically someone dies, everybody suspects Draco did it, Harry does his best to protect Draco, Ron and the Aurors investigate, Draco angsts (and War-related fears start bubbling close to the surface again, leaving him tensed, worried and scared most of the time), Arabella Figg plays detective. Oh, and a scary but minor hostage scene and a (near fatal) injury scene.

Summary: "There's a dead Ministry official sprawled across the sitting room floor," I announce before collapsing into a chair at the kitchen table. "This can't be good for bookings."

*International liaison officer (between different wizarding ministries)!Harry. Social worker!Draco (working for the New York State office of children and family services)
#Story setting in New York (mostly). Basically, Harry bumps into a Cute!Domestic!Single father!Draco with two adorable sons (one, a hyper chatterbox and the other, small and quiet), was charmed off his feet by Draco's boys and Draco himself, decided to woo Draco. Featuring Lucius and Narcissa as parents who genuinely love Draco and misses him terribly when he "disappeared" post-war, Draco with a new baby brother, Draco with muggle friends and seemed to have given up magic for good, Domestic!Draco in an apron (with a baby on his hip) scene, fluffy first date (with a disastrous start, the result of Harry's naivety LOL!) and other dates with Draco and his boys.
#Story jumped a bit too fast from H/D just getting re-acquainted to falling in love and then getting married but it's still delightfully adorable

Summary: Seven years after the war Harry and Draco are living completely different lives, so what happens when their worlds collide again? Why Love of-course!

*Awesomeness!! ~~omgsqueeeeee!! ♥♥♥♥♥
Harry works with the Department of Misuse of Magic (sort of like a Narcotics Agent), Draco brews illegal (and addictive) potions. Basically Harry is out to arrest the gang of drug (addictive potion) dealers Draco brews for and so Draco is tasked with the duty to keep Harry occupied and distracted from his job. But right from the start, it was never about deceiving Harry but more on the fact that Draco finds himself genuinely attracted to Harry. Featuring H/D bickering at each other like an old married couple, buying each other coffee and sending the coffee to the recipient through a delivery service, dinner dates, Harry teaching Draco how to drive, Draco teaching Harry how to ski, sexytimes and a little bit of angst... but there's a happy ending :D

Summary: In which Draco's life is shady, Harry is out to save the world from itself, and revenge turns sour.

*War!fic. Harry and Draco on the run together (on the streets, somewhere in muggle New York and having to skimp on things because they don't have a lot of money), searching for a special gem stone called the Black Star which is a Horcrux. They argue and fight a lot (being broader and stronger, Harry almost always wins the fights... once, Harry beats up Draco pretty bad)... and lust after each other. Featuring pervert!Snape who squashes Draco in sleep, molests him and at one point contemplated suffocating Draco (>.< Do. Not. Like. This version of Snape), Mostly clueless!petulant!foul-tempered damsel-in-distress!Draco (he's also very jumpy and tends to cling to Harry when startled or scared), frustrated!Harry with anger and sexuality issues (frustrated that Draco's with him and that he's attracted to Draco... but can't help crushing his lips to Draco's anyways). Draco crossdressed at one point at Snape's insistence. Harry/Draco sharing a bed, holding hands in public (dragging the other everywhere), having coffee and pastries together, going clubbing, buying a ring, kissing, UST-ing and sexytimes. Also, minor character death (not H/D) and Draco making Ginny jealous (and she cries).

Summary: Draco must find something for the Dark Lord.

*AU-ish War!fic. Harry is some sort of a badass government agent, basically the Head of the War Office and Special Consultant to the Minister of Magic. Draco is a Death Eater turned Spy for the Ministry (Redeemed!Draco). Harry's also charged with bodyguard!duty concerning Draco but is given license/permission to kill Draco should he prove to be untrustworthy or if Draco succumbs to Voldie's Summons
#Featuring flashbacks to their Hogwarts days in between scenes, H/D fighting an awful lot (trust issues), D owning H a life debt, H/D forced proximity (on the run from Voldie together), a D.E attack on Hogwarts (in which there is a scene that tortures then kills Lucius), Voldie Summoning (torturing) D through the Dark Mark, ritual to remove the Dark Mark from D (involving some intimate body painting :p), H/D accidental bonding and telepathy, killing Voldie, past Harry/Weasley twin, stubborn!H who's deeply in denial about his feelings for D #Implied switching but it didn't happen because... no sex scenes (such a pity)

Summary: There's only so much death a man can stand.

*Awesomeness!! ♥♥♥♥♥
Auror!Harry. "Mental illness" tag for Narcissa. A series of petty theft involving fake jewelries have been popping up all over, Auror!Harry's been sent to investigate and Draco, as usual, is as uncooperative as ever. Draco is AWESOME in this! He's a survivor, a fighter and a protector; at times he seems so broken (physically) but in mind and inner strength, he's as strong as ever - a survivor. Lots of fighting and UST because both boys are on a very short fuse with their tempers.... but that just makes the eventual sexytimes all the more HOT!

Summary: If not for the Minister being attacked in a raid, it might have made front page that Narcissa Malfoy had gone round the bend.

*Sequel = Don't Miss the Train
Auror partners!Harry and Draco (in Budapest). Redeemed!Draco who's chirpy and adorably flirtatious at the beginning but gets seriously upset when Harry refuses to see past their childhood rivalry (Stubborn!Judgmental!Harry), to see that Draco has changed for the better. Harry might be a little bit mean at times but... oh well, he has his reasons.

Summary: Harry and Draco are forced to work together on an assignment. Draco's been pursuing Harry for a while, but Harry has too little respect for Draco to take him seriously. Could anything in the world change that?