Apple Ling's List: Fears/Phobia

*Aching and angsty but such GOOD pain! ♥♥♥♥♥
Timeline spanning from middle of the war to directly post-war. Basically Harry and Ron got caught by Death Eaters and were thrown into a dingy dungeon cell in Malfoy Manor where they were tortured (sexual, physical and mental) for information. Draco is secretly on their side (sneaking healing potions and food to the prisoners). Featuring graphic descriptions of torture and rape, molestation, heavy usage of Dark curses, painful scarring and branding of the skin, Dark bondage spells meant to stretch, pull, hurt and burn the skin. Draco forced to sexually violate Harry (in case you find this part confusing --> *he fisted Harry*), unintentionally Harry did breached Draco's personal barriers and defenses too - in a way, violating Draco back, killing Voldie, hiding in a Safe House, helplessly smitten!pining!Draco who is deeply regretful of what he had done to Harry - part of Harry understands and wants to forgive but the other part of him can't get over the trauma (for Harry it wasn't about the pain or rape but he's traumatized over losing control to another), Draco trying to redeem himself after, unintentional Legilimency (the sharing of minds), wandless magic (Harry), H/D bonding moments, H/D hurt/comfort moments, adopting a stray kitty, sexy quietly assertive and dominant!Harry and a sub!Draco.
To note: Harry was sexually violated in a lot of ways but never with penile penetration, Ron's violation involve forced penile penetration. And while in the dungeon, Harry is made vulnerable to Draco but after, Draco is made very much vulnerable to Harry - both their enforced state of vulnerability deal with violation of their person but of different kinds. Strong!Harry and Ron, despite everything. Minor character death that is not Harry or Ron or Draco.
#Top!Harry/Bottom!Draco sexy sex scenes

Summary: A damaged-but-not-broken Harry in the clutches of Death Eaters and a caught-up-in-circumstances Draco who's not actually evil.

*Hollywood actor!Draco, Bodyguard!Harry. Past Harry/OMC (and that OMC is a total ass). Featuring Draco as a famous actor in the muggle world, a brooding!lonely!Harry, Draco's phobia of fire, Harry's love for all things cheesy (Taylor Swift songs and romance novels)... and is also a closet romantic, Draco's nightmares, lots of bickering and snark and happy, sexy ending :p
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Summary: Harry Potter has spent the last seven years doing everything the Wizarding World's saviour and Golden Boy shouldn't - breaking it off with his childhood sweetheart, quitting Auror training, and living in isolation in Muggle London. Having just gotten out of an emotionally and financially abusive relationship, Harry hasn't been out of his house in weeks. Meanwhile, after disappearing from the Wizarding World and moving to America for seven years, Draco Malfoy has become a famous Hollywood actor and is back in England to film his latest movie. When Draco begins to receive serious threats, he asks for a Wizard bodyguard to be assigned to him, and who should be more fit for the job than the fallen-from-grace Man Who Lived Twice himself? But can Harry and Draco set aside their differences and work together, or is this just a disaster in the making?

*Ex Head Auror!Harry turned host of a homely lodging/bed and breakfast sort of thing (a Cumbrian manor which also happens to be H/D's home), Potions Master!Draco. Established H/D (civil partnership). Ginny + Astoria friendship. Epilogue compliant with teenage Next Gen (everybody being friends with everybody with the minor exception of James Sirius... because he hates Draco's presence in his father's life)
#Basically someone dies, everybody suspects Draco did it, Harry does his best to protect Draco, Ron and the Aurors investigate, Draco angsts (and War-related fears start bubbling close to the surface again, leaving him tensed, worried and scared most of the time), Arabella Figg plays detective. Oh, and a scary but minor hostage scene and a (near fatal) injury scene.

Summary: "There's a dead Ministry official sprawled across the sitting room floor," I announce before collapsing into a chair at the kitchen table. "This can't be good for bookings."

*ABSOLUTELY BEAUTIFUL IMAGERY & AN INTERESTING TAKE ON LUCID DREAMING! ♥♥♥♥♥
Healer!Harry, coma patient!Draco. Exactly what the summary says. Draco's subconscious and soul is trapped in a otherworldly place. Harry is determined to save him, but convincing Draco to allow himself to be saved is a whole new battle. Side pairing Ron/Hermione. Contain a slightly neurotic!Draco but not insane... or at the very least, not Bellatrix-insane, and Lucius and Narcissa who aren't evil bastards, who truly love their only son. #No sex

Summary: 5 years after the war and Harry finds a bedridden Malfoy trapped in a rose garden within his own mind. It's Harry's job to get him out by going in and visiting him there. It won't be easy though, especially considering the fact that Malfoy may have already gone mad.

*ANGSTY WAR!FIC, BUT IT HURTS SO GOOD *sniffles* ♥♥♥♥♥♥
A different take on the 'Sectumsempra bathroom scene' in HBP - except, it didn't happen. Harry Summoned Draco's wand out of his hand instead of casting 'Sectumsempra' - so instead of saving Draco from Fiendfyre, Harry saved Draco that day in Moaning Myrtle's bathroom. Harry and Draco stuck in Grimmauld Place (alone - because Kreacher and the screaming bitch of a portrait doesn't count) for their protection (locked in by wards). Faking Draco's death, severe (gore-y, bloody, torture-filled) nightmares, trauma and so much fear and angst and crying... and comfort sex (post-nightmare). Alcoholic!Depressed!Broken!Draco. Noble!Protective!Smitten!Harry. Lots of sexy angsty desperate!sex with Harry trying and failing to be noble (he didn't want to take advantage of a depressed!broken!Draco) - omg the blowjob scene in the drawing room! Attempted suicide, more angst but with happy Harry/Draco ending.

Summary: If you had only died when you were meant to, I'd have grown up in a wizarding world already ruled by the Dark Lord. I wouldn't be screaming at you in a sixth floor bathroom. I wouldn't be raising my wand, Crucio on my lips.

*GAAH!! SO AWESOME!! *loves* ♥♥♥♥♥♥
Part 2 of The Intellectual Love Affair series (it's a trilogy). Master Brewer!Draco (BAMF!Potions expert). Not-so-recluse!Harry because he's officially helping with Draco's apothecary business (Harry/Draco as business partners and close friends). Harry/Draco pre-slash turning into slash (Harry starts to actively pursue Draco) and bits of Draco/Daphne Greengrass (a bit of Harry/Ginny friendship). Evil baddies are still after Harry and Draco - this time, they're determined to destroy everything accomplished by Draco and hurt Harry (by hurting Draco because Harry cares for Draco). Violence, torture, dark curses, illegal use of memory charms and Legilimency (used as a torture device) and sexual abuse (Draco) - and the resulting injuries. Potions shop talk, political stuff, powerful wandless magic (Harry), Harry's fear of his own magic, Draco's selective amnesia (memory charms), kidnapping (and the awesome rescue plan), dueling, graphic torture & sexual abuse scenes.

Summary: Draco and Harry start marketing the Desire potion, only to encounter opposition from Draco's debtors, manipulative Slytherin women, and politicians running for Minister.

*TOO EPIC FOR WORDS ♥♥♥♥♥♥ *flails*
Mostly Epilogue compliant but with a clever magical twist! Harry works for Hermione in the Blood Reparations Department. Draco is a lonely recluse at first. Later on, Draco helps Harry with his work. There are 2 main plots that weaves around each other in this fic:
Plot 1 - Draco is accused of murdering a muggleborn witch. Narcissa claims the life-debt Harry owes her and demands that Harry investigate the matter to prove Draco's innocence. Then, Pureblood supremacist groups and Muggleborn rights groups try to start a 3rd war. New evil mastermind called the Masked Lady.
Plot 2: Harry can't stop having sexy dreams of an alternate life he has with Draco. Harry and Draco both have sexy visions of themselves as lovers in mirrors. Some powerful magical force is trying to force them together despite the marriage vows made to their respective wives. Also, the same powerful force kept hurting Draco and making Harry save him. Plus, Draco is compelled to save Harry a couple of times too.
#Harry and Draco are both BAMF!Heros in this, although for the majority of the story Harry plays the Savior/Protector-role while Draco tries not to lean too heavily on Harry's strength and ability to save/protect/comfort him. Eventually Draco learns to save himself... and Harry. Ginny and Malfoy-wife bashing. Hermione's role is... divided between BAMF!Heroine and Cold Meddling Bitch (P.S. - I dislike Hermione a lot more than I dislike Ginny in this fic) throughout the story. Awesome!Narcissa. Life debts and marriage vows, the appearance of dragons and zombies, Draco's extreme claustrophobia, near drowning, near fatal overdose on a potion, a cuddly Scorpius who's almost always glued to Draco like a clingy cute koala, an equally cuddly kidlet!Albus Severus, Harry's Guardian Angel owl, a teensy bit of Harry/Draco/Ginny love triangle, metal-cased dead Malfoy ancestors, violence and torture. Also, cute Scorpius + Albus Severus kiddie friendship (all the children are tiny kidlets in this piece) *coos* Happy Harry/Draco ending.

Summary: Harry is too busy ten years after the war to help out just one family, but that's exactly what he has to do. And as he hunts their enemy, magic no one understands is hunting him.

*SO AMAZING I'M ALL TEARY-EYED BECAUSE THIS IS... GAAH, SO AWESOME I CAN'T FIND WORDS WORTHY ENOUGH TO DESCRIBE ITS AWESOMENESS!! ♥♥♥♥♥
Auror!Harry (with Auror partner!Ron) and a rebellious!Draco who has suddenly decide he needs to face all his fears before it's too late (he has a list of things he wants to do and he asks Harry to help him). Harry is reckless, more than usual, in this story and Ron (and everyone else who knows Harry) thinks Harry has a serious death wish, which to be honest isn't that far from the truth. Frightened!Quirky!Earnest!Draco with his fears, insecurities and desperation to face all of them, actually grounds Harry and stops him from doing crazy reckless things that could get him killed. Draco with his weird theories of muggles (especially muggle women LOL!) and his hilarious visit to the Dursleys (with a magical potted plan that gives you rabbit ears!!). Flying on a hippogriff, facing werewolves (Draco's boggart is a werewolf), bonding moments and hilarious chats with Harry. Sexytimes (Draco bruises way too easily), Harry's tattoos and angst and the discussion of feelings and Harry and Draco bonds for real and then happy, happy ending!
#Heavily implied switching, graphic and detailed penetrative sex scene is bottom!Draco. In other scenes, Harry was the one on the receiving end of a lovely rim-job and fingering.... unfortunately, nothing more than that. Regardless of Top/Bottom, every sex scene is sinfully delicious!!

Summary: "There are two basic motivating forces: fear and love. When we are afraid, we pull back from life. When we are in love, we open to all that life has to offer with passion, excitement, and acceptance." -- John Lennon

*SWEET FLANGST!! ♥♥♥♥♥
Guest speakers at Hogwarts!Harry and Draco. Draco is also an expert on Dark Arts, especially on magical (cursed) fire - Fiendfyre. Draco + Pansy = best friends. Cute side pairing: Ron/Pansy. A little bit of Draco/OMC. Draco has a cute talkative mirror in his room (the mirror soothes him every time Draco has nightmares or bad dreams). Draco's fear of fire and smoke... and of suffocating (Draco has panic attacks). Naughty students with pureblood bigotry. Draco has issues with commitment. He's also insecure and doubtful of the idea of him and Harry together. Missing students and kidnappings. Harry and Draco saves the day!

Summary: Draco is the wrong man for the job. Potter is insufferable. And as if it all wasn't bad enough, who the hell died and made Draco hero for a day?

*Good, good angst! With happy ending!
Master!Harry, D.E Slave!Draco. Rather Dark-ish in some parts. Harry being an insensitive prat for about half the story but slowly he gets nicer and more understanding of Draco's plight. Draco half-starving himself to near death. Draco's nightmares and a myriad of other fear-induced and low self-worth issues cultivated in him from the War and the abusive treatment of Azkaban inmates. Plus, the injuries Draco suffers from... all kinds of abusive treatment. Draco shows severe signs of depression at the beginning. Draco + creepy boggart. Harry as a violent drunk... only at the beginning. Sexytimes started of as... orders from Master to Slave but slowly evolves to something a little more equal and consenting on both parties. Best friend!Blaise (to Draco). Minor character death. Lots of references to cruel and abusive treatment of D.E slaves. #Mostly bottom!Draco but one bottom!Harry scene towards the end.

Summary: Well, I think the prompt explains it quite well, but if I must: Draco did not quite expect Potter to be the one to buy him at the auction, he didn't really expect an auction to begin with, and he definitely did not expect Potter to be utilizing him in the way that he did. Draco swallowed discreetly as he watched the goings-on. The Dark Lord had lost the war. Potter and the Order of the Phoenix had won. Wizarding society was in shambles. Despite all that, the Ministry apparently had enough time, and audacity, to auction off the surviving Death Eaters; those deemed stable without a wand - to the angry, suffering, vindictive public in the name of war reparations.

*MADE OF AWESOMENESS ♥♥♥♥♥!!!
Dark wizard!Magical theorist!Potions supplier among other things!Draco (who is also a mentor to Harry in ways of the Dark Arts). Auror!Reluctant Dark wizard!Parselmouth!Harry (who gradually transforms into a half-snake-half-wizard person, and a mightily powerful one at that too). Dark witch!Pansy (also Draco's best friend). Harry is obviously the more powerful of the two but Draco's knowledge in all things Dark Arts more than made up for it.
Lots of detailed magical theories and explanations about how magic works, particularly the Dark Arts. Draco saves Harry (sort of) but this isn't your average Harry-in-distress sort of fic (NOT wimpy!meek!Harry). But it is the sort of fic that has Draco persuading Harry into tapping into his Slytherin qualities. Harry nearly going insane (hallucinations, over-flowing of power) Ron/Hermione and basically almost the entire Wizarding world is afraid/disgusted of Harry (except Draco who finds Harry hawt!). Fear of the Dark Arts and Parselmouths. Harry's snakes (particularly an intelligent white one always curling around his neck/shoulders/sitting on his head). Harry, Draco and Pansy breaking into the Dept of Mysteries. Interview with Rita Skeeter (this time she's on Harry's side). Some really creepy parts. #Only 2 penetrative sex scenes. 1 Bottom!Draco and the other Bottom!Harry (Personally, I think both are EQUALLY HOT OMG!! But b!Draco fans could skip the Bottom!Harry part in Chapter 20 - the top half if you want to)

Summary: They were right, the old wizards who thought Parseltongue was a Dark gift. As Harry begins his fall from the Light, fighting desperately all the way, Draco is happy to take advantage.

*THIS DESERVES ALL THE LOVE!! :DD ♥♥♥♥♥
H/D = working in the ministry. Harry being a stubborn prat, Draco also a prat (but slightly less prat-ish compared to Harry). Draco writes letters of apologies to Harry, seeks redemption and forgiveness from others he has hurt in the past, works for Bill and generally tries to be 'good'. Harry on the other hand, lets his temper flies at the mere sight or mention of Draco... and generally has anger management issues. Protective!Bill (of Draco). Sad!Drunk!Draco at one point. Draco and his fear of fire. Angst, hurt/comfort, happy ending.

Summary: Harry doesn't want to hear anything Draco Malfoy has to say, but ignoring him and all the letters he sends probably isn't the best idea he's ever had, all things considered.

*8th year. Cute house unity + slow get-together fic! Featuring the Slytherins as a tight knit group of friends, protective!Draco over Goyle. Harry teaching Draco how to cast a Patronus and Draco helping Harry with Potions work. Boggarts and fears. Nightmares and comforting afters (Goyle, with Draco comforting him). Implied past child abuse and Lucius as the possible abuser. Cute!Draco!Emotionally vulnerable!Draco and Harry tucks him in for the night. Outdoor kisses and cuddles by the lake :D #No sex

Summary: Harry and Ron are forced to share a dormitory with Draco and Goyle. The Slytherins grow on them.

*VERY TOUCHING AND FLANGSTY !!
Draco being rather fearful of flying and still suffers remnants of a post traumatic stress disorder thing. And then later in the fic, reveals that he wants to be a Healer and of course, he heals an injured!Harry. Fluffiness towards the end. #No sex

Summary: Five years after the end of the war, and Harry's taking part in a remembrance pilgrimage across the country. When he realises another old schoolmate is also taking part, it's all too easy to fall back into the habit of watching Draco Malfoy.

*Auror!Harry, Curse-breaker!Draco. Unknown curse that causes catatonia. Baddies trying to frame the Malfoys. Draco getting tired of being Harry's dirty secret. Harry struggling with sexuality issues and his fear of coming out to his friends. Patient!Caring!Draco. The Imperius curse and poor little Winky.

Summary: Suffering from Post-War Stress, Auror Harry Potter finds the best way to move past his insecurities and find healing is by trusting those he loves to accept him exactly as he is. Case!fic, featuring curse-breaker!Draco

*LOVES!! OMG SO MUCH LOVE!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥!!!
Basically Harry learning to trust Draco enough to tell him... everything. From the abuse he suffered at the Dursleys' hand and then more. And Draco stays :D #No sex

Summary: I don't know the boy in the cupboard. I'm not sure that I ever did. Those aren't my memories, aren't my feelings. They belong to someone else. Someone that I'm not sure even existed. It's just a story. Something that people have told others just to make an average person seem more heroic at the end of the tale.

*EPICNESS TOO AWESOME TO PUT INTO WORDS ♥♥♥♥♥♥!!!
Timeline from mid-war to a few years post-war. From Auror!Harry to Integration Officer!Harry plus Rentboy!Junkie!Draco
Broken-but-still-Canon!Draco with lots of issues (including but not limited to PTSD, rape trauma, acute fear of... too many things to name, drug use, prostitution, self-neglect, self-harm, depression, suicidal tendencies, unplanned fatherhood...) Hero!Harry for the most part (but in the end Draco was the one who saved him), baby Scorpius, werewolves, lost of magic because of a Dark Curse, dementors and general bleakness plus hurt/comfort and happy ending. #Switching but it's more bottom!Draco than bottom!Harry

Summary: Draco finds his own way to cope with being a failed Death Eater at Voldemort's headquarters. Voldemort finds a way to destroy the wizarding world even after his death. Harry is trying to hold the world together while his mind quietly comes apart.

*BEAUTIFUL BEYOND WORDS!! (But it's a little bit disturbing in some parts - READ THE WARNINGS!! Don't say I've not warn you!!) STILL, I LOVE IT ANYWAY!!
Auror!Harry. Victim of domestic abuse!Draco (Marcus/bottom!Draco). Harry has a kink for infantilism (with Harry play-acting a baby). Draco and his pet fishes (This Draco really likes fishes :D) Draco fears being alone and "unloved". Harry's almost completely asexual at the beginning of the story (Fear of sex?) Victims of violence self-justifying the abuse done to them in a desperate bid for love. Betrayal. Forgiveness. Learning to accept one's self, both the good and the bad... and the odd. #With H/D - I can't tell who bottoms but I really don't care about that part.

Summary: Both Harry and Draco are terrified of love, albeit for different reasons. Harry's never been in love, but he's seen enough of love's dark side to know he never wants to be. Draco, on the other hand, has been in love, but that love nearly killed him. Eventually they find that only the other can help him imagine life - and love's - infinite forms and possibilities.

*Swedish traditions and choir songs. Draco with an amazing singing voice, Harry and Draco forced to spend all their time together, Harry finding himself attracted to Draco but didn't know what to do with it, Draco + Pansy friendship, jealous!Ginny, protective!Harry (of Draco), Draco and nightmares and rooming with Harry to ward off nightmares. Draco "fears" that nobody loves/cares for him. General cuteness and fluff.

Summary: A Christmas-calender!fic. Draco just wanted to get through his eighth year without any fuss - Trust McGonagall to drag him into some battle between the light and dark, and to make Potter his guardian.

HEART-BREAKING BUT GOD, IT HURTS SO GOOD! EPICNESS!! ♥♥♥♥♥♥!!
#Epilogue compliant dystopian future. Post-zombi-apocalypse. Zombie infection due to Voldy's curse. Acute fear of loneliness. Memory loss+Pensieve. Catatonia. Zombie slaying. Major character death (not ASP or SM). Pairings include Harry/Ginny, Harry/Draco, Ron/Hermione, Albus Sev/Scorpius (main pairing). READ THE WARNINGS! THIS IS NOT FOR THE WEAK-HEARTED!!

Summary: It's several years after they escaped the chamber, life is different in this new world and sometimes it's hard to remember what being alive feels like.