Apple Ling's List: Emotional Insecurity

*8th year. Angsty hurt/comfort with a fluffy ending. Featuring Jittery!Prone to panic attacks!Depressed!Apathetic!Draco... basically this has an emotionally damaged!Draco like whoa! And a Pining!Obsessively stalker-like!Harry who's lost and wanted desperately to belong. Brief Harry/Ginny and Draco/Astoria (past Draco/Pansy). Not-Evil!Slytherins who genuinely care for Draco. Contains severe depression and anxiety that manifested in some form of numb, apathetic behavior + suicidal thoughts. Eating disorder. Nightmares and severe panic attacks. At one point Draco nearly gets himself killed and Harry rescues him. Stressful exams and classes. Touching H/D bonding moments and Draco/Astoria moments.
#Sex scenes happen off-screen.

Summary: Shortly after the war, Draco Malfoy wakes up with a new understanding, and Harry Potter needs firmer ground to walk on. Unfortunately, life is never easy, especially with the burdens of N.E.W.T.s looming closer. As Draco struggles to maintain his sanity, Harry is back to his old routine-stalking Draco.

*8th year. Basically Harry finds himself glued to Draco (literally) and is forced to get used to being in close proximity with Draco - plus go about his daily routine one handed. Draco's an intriguing mixture of (well hidden) vulnerability, false bravado, stubbornness, withdrawn wariness and cute snark. Harry, on the other hand is soooo Harry that he is UBER CUTENESS!! Awesome!Hermione. Harry's naughty t-shirt (to sleep in) and Draco's nightgown :p Sleeping and eating together. Nightmares and Draco crying and comforting. And lots of UST-ing. Also, teenagers can be real mean and thoughtless (especially to Draco, considering post-war circumstances) #No penetrative sex

Summary: The first thing Harry knew about it was when he woke up lying on a bed in the hospital wing, with his arm firmly stuck to the scrawny, milk-white arm of Draco bloody Malfoy.

*Established relationship (married, then divorced). Lots of tropical island induced UST-ing, a little bit of angst and drama, and lots of fluff!

Summary: Most people would think that seven days on a tropical island would be a week in paradise, unless they were stranded on the island with their ex-husband.

*8th year. Lonely!Bitter!Regretful-yet-still-prickly-and-defensive!Draco (and a little bit resentful for the way everything turned out for his family post-war), and a Harry who stalks/follows Draco all over the castle trying to help. "Vulnerable!Draco" tag is to make up for "Emotionally Damaged!Draco". Told mostly from Draco's pov. Sad!Pansy and Sad!Goyle. Featuring Draco being mean to others on purpose to make up for his "relapse" in showing vulnerability (which happens more often than not), Draco being bullied (a little bit) and shunned by other Slytherins, Draco crying or feeling on the verge of tears a lot, nightmares + insomnia + stealing potion ingredients to brew Dreamless Sleep, Harry trying to befriend a prickly!Draco, Draco writing letters to Ollivander but pretending to be someone else, H/D and some tricky bit of wandlore/magical wand bonding that has one of them experiencing the other's magic/dreams and H/D secret relationship, suicidal thoughts.
#Sex scenes all happen behind the screen so there's no way to tell who Tops/ Bottoms

Summary: There are things that Malfoys simply don't do. They don't cry, or show any emotion unless entirely unavoidable. They don't back down. And they certainly don't admit that maybe, just maybe, they might be wrong about a few things.

Draco's back for his eighth year, and with everything that's changed, these basic rules will soon be called into question.

*Basically Harry gets Draco pregnant in the middle of the war. Right before Harry goes Horcrux hunting, Draco pushes Harry away because of his insecurities and hides away in Hogwarts during his 7th year to protect his unborn child - he also joins the D.A. and befriends Luna, Neville and Ginny. Also, this contains some pregnancy angst as Draco battles his insecurities.
Fest link: http://harrydracompreg.livejournal.com/222447.html

Summary: Set in sixth year, Harry goes to the hospital wing to apologise to Draco and ends up confessing his love. They both didn't know this could happen, Harry is stuck in the middle of the war and Draco has to figure out how to protect his family! Vague but hopeful ending.

*Aching and angsty but such GOOD pain! ♥♥♥♥♥
Timeline spanning from middle of the war to directly post-war. Basically Harry and Ron got caught by Death Eaters and were thrown into a dingy dungeon cell in Malfoy Manor where they were tortured (sexual, physical and mental) for information. Draco is secretly on their side (sneaking healing potions and food to the prisoners). Featuring graphic descriptions of torture and rape, molestation, heavy usage of Dark curses, painful scarring and branding of the skin, Dark bondage spells meant to stretch, pull, hurt and burn the skin. Draco forced to sexually violate Harry (in case you find this part confusing --> *he fisted Harry*), unintentionally Harry did breached Draco's personal barriers and defenses too - in a way, violating Draco back, killing Voldie, hiding in a Safe House, helplessly smitten!pining!Draco who is deeply regretful of what he had done to Harry - part of Harry understands and wants to forgive but the other part of him can't get over the trauma (for Harry it wasn't about the pain or rape but he's traumatized over losing control to another), Draco trying to redeem himself after, unintentional Legilimency (the sharing of minds), wandless magic (Harry), H/D bonding moments, H/D hurt/comfort moments, adopting a stray kitty, sexy quietly assertive and dominant!Harry and a sub!Draco.
To note: Harry was sexually violated in a lot of ways but never with penile penetration, Ron's violation involve forced penile penetration. And while in the dungeon, Harry is made vulnerable to Draco but after, Draco is made very much vulnerable to Harry - both their enforced state of vulnerability deal with violation of their person but of different kinds. Strong!Harry and Ron, despite everything. Minor character death that is not Harry or Ron or Draco.
#Top!Harry/Bottom!Draco sexy sex scenes

Summary: A damaged-but-not-broken Harry in the clutches of Death Eaters and a caught-up-in-circumstances Draco who's not actually evil.

*Timeline spanning from an alternate Hogwarts 7th year (HBP and DH didn't happen) to directly post-war. Death Eater Spy for the Order!Draco. Featuring Brave!Self-sacrificing!Smitten!Draco and a Harry who finds himself slowly, but surely, falling in love with this other side of Draco. Harry's also several inches taller than Draco. References to (past) torture and the resulting aches/shakiness/concussion from it (Draco), the Bone Breaking Curse (and injuries resulting from that curse), Draco saving Harry, Harry's brief sexuality crisis (concerning Draco's crush on him), supportive Ron and Hermione, secret relationship, coming out, moving in together, cute H/D moments, cute hurt/comfort moments when one of them came down with the flu, happy fluffy ending
Alternate link:http://www.cosmicuniverse.net/nw/myfics/hp/spyseries1.html

A series of ficlets about Harry and Draco and their blossoming relationship.

Starting with the summary of the first part:
Summary: Harry is sent to collect the new spy after a Death Eater meeting. Pre-slash. This is the first installment of The Spy Series.

*One of the hurt/comfort classics in the H/D part of fandom. Featuring a vulnerable!needy!Draco (he also cries a lot) with symptoms of Multiple Personality Disorder/Dissociative Identity Disorder (with references to past abuse and torture - sexual,magical, physical and mental abuse - which resulted in breaking his mind), and Harry as his caregiver/guardian + eventual lover. Other memorable things to take note: Evil!Slytherins (and Lucius and the Death Eaters), Narcissa committing suicide, one of Draco's "other" personalities include a 6-year-old child, Draco has a penchant for climbing into Harry's lap for comfort or tucking his face in the crook of Harry's shoulder, Harry helping Draco get dressed/bathe... even lulling him to sleep, Ron getting angry at Harry, an old Black protection curse - the Ancestral Rite, getting kidnapped by baddies, having nightmares, teenage angst, teenage lusty hormones :p Happy ending
#Mostly bottom!Draco. 1 bottom!Harry scene in between flashbacks of bottom!Draco in the last chapter. *fans self* Sexy!

Summary: When Draco Malfoy's mental health mysteriously declines, he is placed under the care of the only person he responds to: Harry Potter. Includes mental disorders (paranoid schizophrenia, Dissociative Identity Disorder, post-traumatic stress).

*Adaptation of "Time Traveler's Wife" by Audrey Niffenegger. Harry has a "time-traveling" condition and as he time-travels, he meets Draco in various stages of their life. Uber sweet and romantic with a happy fluffy ending. Timeline spanning from when Harry first met tiny kidlet!Draco to when they're both old and grey (and still very much in love and together ♥). When Harry travels through time, he suffers a bit of disorientation and temporary amnesia. The Draco in this universe is endearingly sweet on Harry, probably because he remembers Harry's time-travel moments through various (significant) parts of his life more than Harry himself. Uber romantic H/D first time ♥♥
Smooch Fest link: http://hd-smoochfest.livejournal.com/117813.html

Summary: Harry was twenty-one the first time it happened, he was twenty-one and falling in love for the first time. It seems he'll go back, travel through time, until he finds the anchor that keeps him here.

*Non-magic AU. Prostitute!Draco, evil!Lucius, smitten!rich!Harry. Attempted non-con (Draco/OMC) and injuries from that attack.
Alternate link: http://www.fanfiction.net/s/9045111/1/Green-Satin-Sheets

Summary: When Lucius found out that his son was gay, he sold him to Voldemort and cut off the family fortune. Harry finds him on the streets seven months after Draco is able to break free. Can he save the blond dragon?

*Cute! ♥♥♥♥♥
Tee hee! 8th year. Harry crushes on Draco and uses the Giant Squid to get Draco's attention! OMG! This is beyond cute! A teensy little bit of dub-con-ish moments when Draco got fondled by the Squid. Also, swimming lessons at Hogwarts and the boys in skimpy bathing trunks! Also featuring Blaise and Pansy as Draco's protective best friends :p

Summary: Draco has a stalker, or is it a secret admirer? What does Potter have to do with it?

*Absolutely beautiful! ♥♥♥♥♥
Auror!Harry who is also a dog animagus nicknamed Fluffy :p Blind!Draco (who is also a writer - He writes gay romance novels) and Harry is his bodyguard.
Basically Draco finds himself blind after an attack in Diagon Alley. Auror!Harry offers to pose as Draco's guide dog (in animagus form). Harry makes an adorable dog and is sweet and protective and PERFECT! Draco is terribly insecure, very self-punishing and has basically lost of faith in the Wizarding World he has left behind to live in the Muggle world, but doggy!Harry and Harry himself, gives him back his happiness and confidence. Draco collects old, discarded books because he couldn't bear to throw them away (aww!). Cute H/D bonding and hurt/comfort moments. Also, cute flustered!Harry moments when he finds himself attracted to Draco. And cute Draco+doggy!Harry moments. Plus, the cutest, fluffiest ending ever *loves*
Smooch Fest link: http://hd-smoochfest.livejournal.com/110188.html

Summary: Don't think of it as losing your sight. Think of it as gaining an Animagus who never quite learned the meaning of the word 'boundaries'.

*Story set directly post-war. Spy for the Light!Draco (Redeemed!Draco). This has a rather chatty and expressive!Draco that is just endearing to read and a Harry that started off as all moody and full of teenage angst.... but eventually he warms up to Draco.
Featuring Draco's love for coffee and Harry liking tea better than coffee, Harry's sexy morning workouts, Draco bonding with the TV, Draco learning how to cook, lots of H/D bickering and attempts at friendship, H/D having nightmares, cute H/D bonding moments (cleaning the house together, sharing secrets and other personal details, getting drunk together sharing a bed, etc) #No sex scenes

Summary: Harry and Draco are sent to a safe house immediately after the battle of Hogwarts, where they're supposed to be spend three weeks together, much to their anger. Television serves as both therapy and a bonding opportunity, coffee and tea get drunk in large quantities, and they try to reconcile themselves with life after the war.

*Hollywood actor!Draco, Bodyguard!Harry. Past Harry/OMC (and that OMC is a total ass). Featuring Draco as a famous actor in the muggle world, a brooding!lonely!Harry, Draco's phobia of fire, Harry's love for all things cheesy (Taylor Swift songs and romance novels)... and is also a closet romantic, Draco's nightmares, lots of bickering and snark and happy, sexy ending :p
Smooch Fest link: http://hd-smoochfest.livejournal.com/111217.html

Summary: Harry Potter has spent the last seven years doing everything the Wizarding World's saviour and Golden Boy shouldn't - breaking it off with his childhood sweetheart, quitting Auror training, and living in isolation in Muggle London. Having just gotten out of an emotionally and financially abusive relationship, Harry hasn't been out of his house in weeks. Meanwhile, after disappearing from the Wizarding World and moving to America for seven years, Draco Malfoy has become a famous Hollywood actor and is back in England to film his latest movie. When Draco begins to receive serious threats, he asks for a Wizard bodyguard to be assigned to him, and who should be more fit for the job than the fallen-from-grace Man Who Lived Twice himself? But can Harry and Draco set aside their differences and work together, or is this just a disaster in the making?

*So good! *moans* Canon compliant (minus the Epilogue). Basically Draco goes on trial after the war for the nasty things he did as a D.E. He's scared stiff, paranoid, bitterly regretful of his past actions but stubbornly prideful and defensive all the same... and is also very reluctant to let Harry help him. Lucky for him, Harry still has an unhealthy obsession with all things Draco Malfoy and wants to save him... and give Draco back his wand (which Draco refuses to accept - the wand, I mean). Featuring a bit of wandlore and duelling, lots of H/D bickering and UST-ing and angry make-out sessions, portrait of Walburga Black screaming at Harry and cooing over Draco, Draco refusing his hawthorn wand.... etc etc
#No penetrative sex scenes

Summary: Harry hadn't initially meant to speak at Malfoy's trial. But then, he hadn't initially meant for a lot of things to happen.

*Mhmm, sexy! :p Basically, established relationship!Harry and Draco (they're married!) discuss their sexual kinks. #Fantasy-wise (or when it comes to kinky preferences) Draco gets off on being the slutty, submissive bottom while Harry has a thing for dominating Draco. In actual practice (in usual day-to-day routine) however, they take turns Topping/Bottoming and... are pretty vanilla in their bedroom activities, mostly because they're ashamed of their.... wilder, kinkier fantasies. Contains super sexy, very graphic Top!Draco/Bottom!Harry scene (while they fantasize about a particular Bottom!Draco scenario) at the end *fans self*. Also, lots and lots of Veritaserum

Summary: This entire fic is one long conversation about sex.

*Gentle, quiet and romantic ~~happy sigh~~ ♥♥♥♥♥
Ex-Professional Quidditch player!Harry (for the Canons) turned owner of a lovely pub in Hogsmeade!Harry (The pub's name is "The Stag and Flower"). Private potions (and potion ingredients) supplier turned Potions Professor at Hogwarts!Draco. Past Draco/Astoria (and she's quite a cunning bitch in this) and Harry/OMC (and that OMC is a total bastard!). Featuring Ron/Hermione and Ginny as Harry's close friends, Harry's knee injury, Draco being lonely and depressed, Drunk!Draco, Draco with lovely, long hair, Sympathetic (to Draco's plight)!Harry, Harry walking Draco home, a little bit of a love triangle between Harry/Draco/Harry's ex (with Harry in the middle) sweet fluff. #No sex scenes. Just a sweet, slow and convincing buildup to H/D getting together :p

Summary: When Harry's life is turned upside down, he decides to start over. In so doing, he learns that he and Draco Malfoy might have more in common than he ever could have imagined.

*Ex Head Auror!Harry turned host of a homely lodging/bed and breakfast sort of thing (a Cumbrian manor which also happens to be H/D's home), Potions Master!Draco. Established H/D (civil partnership). Ginny + Astoria friendship. Epilogue compliant with teenage Next Gen (everybody being friends with everybody with the minor exception of James Sirius... because he hates Draco's presence in his father's life)
#Basically someone dies, everybody suspects Draco did it, Harry does his best to protect Draco, Ron and the Aurors investigate, Draco angsts (and War-related fears start bubbling close to the surface again, leaving him tensed, worried and scared most of the time), Arabella Figg plays detective. Oh, and a scary but minor hostage scene and a (near fatal) injury scene.

Summary: "There's a dead Ministry official sprawled across the sitting room floor," I announce before collapsing into a chair at the kitchen table. "This can't be good for bookings."

*International liaison officer (between different wizarding ministries)!Harry. Social worker!Draco (working for the New York State office of children and family services)
#Story setting in New York (mostly). Basically, Harry bumps into a Cute!Domestic!Single father!Draco with two adorable sons (one, a hyper chatterbox and the other, small and quiet), was charmed off his feet by Draco's boys and Draco himself, decided to woo Draco. Featuring Lucius and Narcissa as parents who genuinely love Draco and misses him terribly when he "disappeared" post-war, Draco with a new baby brother, Draco with muggle friends and seemed to have given up magic for good, Domestic!Draco in an apron (with a baby on his hip) scene, fluffy first date (with a disastrous start, the result of Harry's naivety LOL!) and other dates with Draco and his boys.
#Story jumped a bit too fast from H/D just getting re-acquainted to falling in love and then getting married but it's still delightfully adorable

Summary: Seven years after the war Harry and Draco are living completely different lives, so what happens when their worlds collide again? Why Love of-course!

*War!fic. Harry and Draco on the run together (on the streets, somewhere in muggle New York and having to skimp on things because they don't have a lot of money), searching for a special gem stone called the Black Star which is a Horcrux. They argue and fight a lot (being broader and stronger, Harry almost always wins the fights... once, Harry beats up Draco pretty bad)... and lust after each other. Featuring pervert!Snape who squashes Draco in sleep, molests him and at one point contemplated suffocating Draco (>.< Do. Not. Like. This version of Snape), Mostly clueless!petulant!foul-tempered damsel-in-distress!Draco (he's also very jumpy and tends to cling to Harry when startled or scared), frustrated!Harry with anger and sexuality issues (frustrated that Draco's with him and that he's attracted to Draco... but can't help crushing his lips to Draco's anyways). Draco crossdressed at one point at Snape's insistence. Harry/Draco sharing a bed, holding hands in public (dragging the other everywhere), having coffee and pastries together, going clubbing, buying a ring, kissing, UST-ing and sexytimes. Also, minor character death (not H/D) and Draco making Ginny jealous (and she cries).

Summary: Draco must find something for the Dark Lord.